Pushing You Away.

I’d say “I love you” too, but then it wouldn’t be true.

I don’t love you, I need you… and I think I want you too.

You drive me crazy— up a wall.

Of all people, you were the one to make me fall.

The only one who promised to catch me if I were to trip—

I keep biting my tongue so “I love you” won’t slip.

I hate you. You disgust me… you give me butterflies.

I can’t stand you, get away… these feelings, I despise.

You’re a terrorist of my heart. You’re a culprit of my mind…

You’re all I’ve ever wanted…

                                       But I’m leaving you behind.

-Shannon Cassady

I don’t believe in love. Nor no what it feels like.
But if I could imagine…

it’s feel exactly the way that I feel about you. 

Sometimes, I want to drink with you. Because then I’d have a perfect reason to kiss you and say it was an accident.

But, then again, that’s the exact same reason why I don’t drink around you:
1. It wouldn’t be an accident.
2. I would die.